It still hurts

I thought, time heals sore. False. Even if i want to sleep, my mind is allways at you. So, i remember the time when you give me the best present in my life. The seven-day-i-think-you-are-so-beautiful-letters. That still means infinitely much to me and my small heart. For strangers: That person wrote me every day an letter, one week long. And in every letter were good sides of my character and my look described. At this time, i completely was dissatisfied with myself and it helped me to become a better self-image.
I never wanted to loose you.

Was my day awesome?

No. Never. Not in million years. In my oppinion - no. I want to forget. I think i can not sleep at night. It was awful. I must break up. Stop it. It was a bad day. Yes. Maybe. I don't think so. Awesome? Are you kidding me? Never. Hard. Ask another person. Terrible sounds better.

Same old shit starts again

I hated when i had a lot argues with friend. I thought it's over and we are aduld now, but no. Whoever it is, this person can't accept that (s)he must share something up with me. Sorry, but that can't go on.

Time runs away..

Just one year ago?

One year, that sounds much. It feels like it was yesterday. When i met you. When i knowed you. But, it's over and now i know how to smile without you! I want that you know that.. i am very thankful of you, of you all. It was one of the best times in my life and i will never forget. never.

Life is sweet!

new friendship

I don't know why, but currently i just have argues with girlfriends. So, i can handle a lot of better with guys. All time it's funny, and, what i never thought - you can talk normaly to them! That really surprised me. I met very much new guys and i must say - i really like them. 

(sorry for my baaad english today, school is over, so i just talk german language)

two month - i love you!

Following pictures

Berlin, Berlin, Berlin!

Sightseeing in Berlin

Today i want to tell you something about my trip to berlin.

So, we started in Groitzsch, a nice small town near Leipzig. After driving four hours, we saw the first big buildings, old signs, big showplaces and the majority of what we saw: people. We had a boaring city tour. But in our freetime there, we saw lot's of interesting things: The Brandenburger Tor, Berlin Fernsehturm, churches and monuments. It was very interesting to be there where were so much holocaust. We saw the rests of the big wall and i was very fascinated in it. Then we just were shopping and eating in the city on potsdamer platz. I could say, in such a big city you feel very lost in the crowd. Everywhere you look are people and this fact is a bit stressful. But, Berlin is a very beautiful city, everybody must see it! 

Paradise

Just before 10 minutes, i was next to my mother. We talked about our last holidays and our wishes and expections about the next one. So, we resolved, that we watch the old videos. It felt good to be there in thought. Then i saw myself in bikini, and the good feeling was away. When we were there last time, i was pretty slim, and now it is a little bit other. After watching, talked with my mom about figures and good looking, and she said: No matter how you look like, the most important fakt ist happyness. It does'nt matter if you are big, small, fat, slim, black or white. And then she said: I am so proud of you, my beautiful daughter. I smiled, and kissed her.
That maked me proud to. I am proud, because i have the best mom a teen girl like me can have! :)

The picture shows me and my mother on the paradise island in egypt, in front of the big paradise sign. It's 3 years ago now, the time is running. And know there are just five more weeks till we are there again. I just can not wait longer! 

Big "thank you!" for the fantastic evening!

Enjoy,
the airstream, the tickle from the setting sun, freedom, the cool grit, the chuckle from happy people, your naked feet, the fresh water, natures colors, the good smelling air, chirping birds, the sound of small waves, passing clouds, the evening mood, the emty streets, the rest, the pink colored sky, a peace of chocolate, the smell of fresh eat, the creazy feeling and easily.. the twosome between you and a lovely person!
  

New beginning!

Second try, new luck!
Don't ask, what happened with my first blog, i do not know it neither.
Maybe it was peace of a kidnapping?
It's away - fascinationcolor was born.
To come to the point: i am not talented in fotography, and also i have'nt the talent to write deep rationales down, thats my style. Maybe someone reads though my blog, i whish much delight!